1.5.3 Almightiness

In the previous posts we discussed the racing thoughts which demonstrate that “something” accelerates them and catalyzes their connections. This “something” seems to strengthen the self-esteem which turns ideas and your very idea of you into certitudes along with protecting you against the negative effects of the environment (doubt, negative emotions, judgment of others). Why not assuming that there is a unique control behind these phenomena? It would resemble any biochemical controls like homeostasis. Since it “improves” functioning and would bring selective value if mastered, why not calling it dominance? This would explain bipolar madness by an excess of dominance.

The last factor I want to mention that drives you crazy is the feeling of almightiness. Not only you have racing thoughts, overconfidence in your capacity, but you “enjoy” also this wild feeling that you are stronger than the environment. This is another step toward utter craziness. Where does this manic feeling come from? If we follow the procedure of the “volume knob” we can answer this question. When you are overdominant you experience almightiness. When you’re normal, this feeling is turned into happiness. When you’re down, then it is sadness, down again and then it is melancholia. You can see that the dominance volume knob concept is powerful in interpreting your swing of mood. It is very difficult to distinguish between almightiness and self-esteem. But I don’t think they are the same because, during mixed episode, a general depressed mood goes along with high level of self-esteem. You are sad and you get convinced that the best way out is suicide. However I’m not 100% sure that happiness and self-esteem are distinct brain chemistry.

I don’t want to elaborate too much now on happiness. In the next posts, I will discuss it from a natural selection perspective. This will enable me to answer a question I raised to myself during my episode III, when I suddenly became the dominant bonobo. After this, I hope you’ll be able to understand what bipolar madness is. I did not mention delusion, hallucination or psychotic intervals because they are peripheral. The main problem is that you believe in them. But we’ll talk about them later on. All you need to remember is that craziness is mostly created by creation of reality (delusion) and ideas (racing thoughts) and the belief in them. All this happen generally in a generalized feeling of utter happiness. These brain phenomena would be nothing really new in town if there were another one that I will progressively disclose in the next posts. This will have strong ties with happiness.

Source : mixed episode definition, wikipedia
In the context of mental disorder, a mixed state, also known as dysphoric mania, agitated depression, or a mixed episode, is a condition during which symptoms of mania and depression occur simultaneously, such as agitation, anxiety, fatigue, guilt, impulsiveness, irritability, morbid or suicidal ideation, panic, paranoia, pressured speech and rage. Typical examples include tearfulness during a manic episode or racing thoughts during a depressive episode. One may also feel incredibly frustrated or be prone to fits of rage in this state, since one may feel like a failure and at the same time have a flight of ideas. Mixed states are often the most problematic period of mood disorders, during which susceptibility to substance abuse, panic disorder, commission of violence, suicide attempts, and other complications increase greatly.

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